Daily Archives: June 9, 2008

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I don’t know what makes you change-how you treat me lately, i can understand, that’s fine, that is your right, though i am not happy about it. i have been trying to be good and nicer to you and us. i just hope that this way is better for you, i will hardly try to understand it and accept it. just for you to know, my feeling to you does not change at all…i do still care about you, and i still do..i also do apologize if i am the cause of all these situations and bad feelings..i am very sorry and i really am..

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This early morning i dreamt that i went to surabaya, and i saw my mom wearing veil, black blouse and trousers, she looked so beautiful and her face was so bright, then she carried a big trolley as if she just returned from abroad. she asked me to carry the trolley home, then she took shower and said she wanted to take a rest and said something, but i cant remember what it was, then she’s gone. after that, i cried out loud in my room, all alone, then the adzan started and i prayed for myself and for her…a friend said that i just felt lonely and alone, and that she wanted me to be happy, not sad…