Four years have just passed. Four years without the love of a greatest mother.
It was Saturday last week, March 26 when all I did was contemplation of what I have done in the last four years without you. And I realized that, I think, I have been a greatest son to you and that, I believe, I have made you the proudest mother in heaven. The love that you sent from heaven has been manifested into great miracles and strengths for me to carry on–to accomplish a lot, a lot more than I could imagine I would, simply beyond my comprehension. Your love has been manifested into so many things in so many ways: to love myself more, to make things up to dad, to make the best use of the opportunities of having great skill development education when I was just a little boy–and I still am your little boy, your great little boy.
I have built up a great personal life, I have achieved a satisfactory professional career and I have developed an impressive educational improvement. All of these things I dedicate to you and I believe without your love, with which I have been living for the last four years, I wouldn’t have done this much and I couldn’t have gone this far. This really is a miracle from heaven that an angle has brought it on to me.
I had times to stop and looked back and learned from the past, and made plans and moved forward again to see my future. I started to paint again and so far I have produced 19 paintings in the last 3 months. And through painting I feel the warmth of your heavenly love. I put some of my panting here and hope that you will like them.
And on that day too, I build you a home to protect you from the sun and the rain. I will come and visit sometime to see the new home. I hope that you’ll like it and that you will feel more comfortable.
Since 4 years ago, I have been keeping your love and care in a secret garden where only I could see and feel it whenever I need it, which is very very often. This has been my strength to keep sailing and sailing the ocean of life with my ship. And this has changed a lot about myself and about life around me. I know that you and will always live in my heart for as long as I live and keep me company in every single step I make.
And on that Saturday, I remember about you a lot. I told a friend that you had been the only person with whom I could share my sadness and happiness with and all the achievements that I made were for you. To make you happy and proud is simply the greatest job I ever had and I loved doing that with all of my heart and my soul. I could be the happiest son on earth whenever I told you the stories about my achievements or sent you some newspapers’ articles or anything else about me, you’d say, “that’s my son!”